Weight Loss Journey: Opinions & Judgements

Okay so it's been a week almost since my last post and I am in good spirits about my WLJ! I have been walking everyday and doing my absolute best to eat healthier. Although my body is sore I keep persevering. I am excited about my future and I know I will get to my goal.

I wanted to address my introduction. I let my mom read what I had posted and her concern was that people might look down on me due to my weight. She got me thinking only because I know that obesity is something that many people don't like to deal with. In fact you have those who judge people simply because they're overweight. However, no matter what others may think or even say about me this is my reality and I have to live with it. That is why I am doing something about it now. I don't like the reality that I am overweight. I don't like the fact that I can't wear the clothes I'd like to (oh yea I'm not one of those big girls who wears items that they really shouldn't...even though it may be in my size.). I don't like the fact that the simplest exercises are so challenging for me. I don't like the fact that I've allowed myself to be over 300 pounds. I don't like the fact that I've put my health in danger. Even though I may not like all of these things I WILL NOT beat myself up because of these things. I WILL however love myself all the way through this journey.

So you see I don't need to worry about other peoples opinions of me because I have my own. I am not going to hide the fact that I am overweight and considered obese. It is an issue that I along with other people who are overweight need to address, and we need not do it later. I want to shine light on this matter so that others can be inspired to 1) lose weight and get healthy and 2) not allow being overweight/obesity to be their issue anymore.

Judge me if you want to but let me say this, me being overweight is a flaw that you can obviously see. What is the 1 flaw that cannot be seen that you need to be paying attention to?

Lastly I'll leave you with this scripture:
"Be honest in your judgment and do not decide at a glance (superficially and by appearances); but judge fairly and righteously." John 7:24 Amplified Bible

~Jeanine Alex

Weight Loss Journey Introduction

This blog will probably be the hardest one to post. Why? Because I am going to be 100% honest! Alright so let's get it started (uh huh...lol). Oh & it may not be in the proper form either, but just go with it.

I am OVERWEIGHT!!! I'm not talking 20 or even 50 pounds overweight, but more like *pause*.......*even longer pause* I am 145 pounds overweight!!! Oh Goodness I'll never get a man now! hahaha

Seriously, if I lose 145 pounds I'll be 200 pounds (you do the math). Now some of you may be saying, "d*mn she fat as hell!" You're right, which is why I need to lose this weight. I am not one to make many excuses for my downfalls because in my opinion, an excuse is just a fancy way of lying.

I said last year I wanted to lose 100 pounds by my 30th birthday, and for a while there I was on the right path. I was losing weight, my mom was even able to see a difference. I mean I was doing so well that I was almost out of the 300s, which is now my ultimate goal for this year. ugh! Then I got off (not fell off) the bandwagon and started gaining weight...again.

I have to admit, I feel bad for allowing myself to get to this point. Like I sit and ask myself, 'what brought me to this?' I have no clear answer though. I will say that like many overweight people, I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm sad, mad, happy, etc. I also have developed the 'I don't care' eating habit and will go to town, then feel awful afterwards. Even when I'm bored and not so much hungry I find myself eating, and when I do I often ask myself again, 'why am I eating this?' So as you can see I am aware of some of my issues

I've been lucky that I haven't had high blood pressure or diabetes, that is until now. I recently had a physical and my blood pressure reading was high :o/ I also have been experiencing some weird skin conditions, and believe they precede diabetes. Umm yea... I am now more scared than I was before. So instead of just twirling my thumbs I AM going to once and for all do something about my weight. If I don't do this now then I might as well consider myself a dead woman walking.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I WILL not let obesity, hypertension, diabetes or any other related issue take me out of here. I have purpose and my destiny has not been attained yet. So here's to a better me and to my future, which is shining ever so bright!!!

"You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be." ~David Viscott

Since this is my introduction I decided to include my stats:
Height: 5' 7"
Weight- 5/25/10: 345 (oh my goodness, oh my goodness)

~Jeanine Alex

A few of my favorite quotes!!

“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.” ~Audrey Hepburn

“I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it.” ~Audrey Hepburn

"Beauty is an attitude. There's no secret. Why are all brides beautiful? Because on their wedding day they care about how they look. There are no ugly women - only women who don't care or who don't believe they're attractive" ~Estee Lauder

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart." ~Helen Keller

This last one is my absolute favorite and has been for a few years...

WHAT IS LIFE?
Life is an Adventure ... Dare it
Life is a Beauty ... Praise it
Life is a Challenge ... Meet it
Life is a Duty ... Perform it
Life is a Love ... Enjoy it
Life is a Tragedy ... Face it
Life is a Struggle ... Fight it
Life is a Promise ... Fulfill it
Life is a Game ... Play it
Life is a Gift ... Accept it
Life is a Journey ... Complete it
Life is a Mystery ... Unfold it
Life is a Goal ... Achieve it
Life is an Opportunity ... Take it
Life is a Puzzle ... Solve it
Life is a Song ... Sing it
Life is a Sorrow ... Overcome it
Life is a Spirit ... Realize it
~Anon
~Jeanine Alex

Been a while...

I cannot believe it's been 2 years since I've blogged. Been real busy! I have so many things to say...in future posts of course. Here's what you can look for in my up coming posts:

~Skin Care Tips
~Fashion Tips
~Weight Loss Journey
~Favorite Products (skin, hair, makeup, nails)
~Recipes
~Entertainment

I'm excited to be back!!
~Jeanine Alex